I'm really depressed. Work isn't improving. If anything, I'm doing worse. This week, a new line cook was hired and I found out later that she was hired to come over and help me. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for the help, but my superiors were sneaky about it. I got that word from the woman who's helping me out. I also overheard a conversation between her and the head chef about what I was saying, what I was doing and how I'd responded to things he'd asked be done.
This is making me think that not only does my boss not have my back, I need to be actively watching it. Let's toss in the fact that he doesn't talk to me. Unless it's totally neccessarry, we don't speak. I'm working with the woman helping me on Friday and she asked me what the chef had told me about something.
"Oh, he doesn't talk to me." I answered.
"Well......that's odd." she said.
"Unless he has to, he doesn't speak to me. When he comes up to the table, he'll talk to you but he won't talk to me." And that's just what happened.
I'm now doubting my ability to do anything. Manage time or produce anything appetizing may not be what I can do. It's making me feel like ditching it and going back to slinging books at Barnes and Noble or going back to Starbucks where at least I know what I'm doing.
In addition, my relationship with The Husband is back on shaky ground. There are days we don't talk to each other and days we get along fine. It depends on the day and how he's feeling about me at that time.
As I said, life is not great right now.