I've spent the last week tossing applications and scheduling interviews. I've had two. One for a cupcake bakery and one at a local head shop.
I talked to the cupcake owner/manager on Monday, who said he'd call me on Tuesday. On Wednesday I called to follow up and haven't heard back. I'm writing that one off. He told me he was looking to hire quickly. I'm going with the thought that if he wanted to hire me he would have called me. The Husband tells me not to assume I blew the interview, there are a lot of other factors involved.
I'm taking his word on that.
The head shop? It would be standard retail stuff. They assure me that they'll call in a week to ten day to either schedule another interview or tell me they've hired all they need for this cycle.
Meanwhile, I'm doing a lot of contemplation. I'm coming back to the work force straight out of culinary school, which means I'm at the bottom of the ladder. I'm also coming back to the work force after having been a housewife for a decade plus. This also puts me at something of a disadvantage.
It's very hard for me to not get discouraged and fall into beating myself up. LOTS of negative talk going on in my head right now. I'm doing my best to squelsh that and remind myself of all the sappy stuff that's true.
At my last therapy appointment we talked about finding a higher purpose as outlined by Victor Frankl, the psychiatrist who survived Dachau. He states that those who survive are those who identify their higher purpose.
What is my higher purpose? It's been pointed out to me that taking care of the family right now is a perfectly acceptable higher purpose. There's no shame in being a woman who keeps hearth and home.
And there's no shame in finding something part time.
But I'm discouraged and hating on myself right now. Telling myself I'm just not cut out to do ANYTHING. My skin isn't thick enough. I'm spoiled by my lifestyle. Stuff like that.
I'm trying to be very spiritual about this, looking for the message telling me what to do. I've got three more applications out, so I'm going to wait to hear on those and then regroup after that.
There we go, tried to keep the whining short and to the point.
Amanda's beauty tip of the day: When it's cold, make sure that you are exfoliating regularly all over your body to keep the flaky itchies away.